The Ending of the Begining

Dont make me over....

It is always refreshing when you meet someone here, and it is especially nice to have a pleasant conversation with them and plan a meeting. I have done this with a new guy I am happy to report. His name is Mart and we met at a happy hour I attended a couple of times and I finally gave him my number and email address (?!?), believe me the conversation was not earth shattering that time, sometimes I like to give me number out just in the hopes of having a missed call(as you can see, it is truly the little things in life that motivate me). Anyhow, he seems like a nice guy and we are even planning to meet sometime this week. One thing I noticed about him is that he asked what I was looking or hoping for...none of the guys I have met have ever asked me that..not that I have been a helpless puppy dog constantly looking for a command (ok that one or five times before, but that's all) but honestly I've never been asked that and it got me to think what do we want....

Accept me for what I am
Accept me for the things that I do

When meeting someone we try our hardest to put on the apperance that we feel is our best, at least most of us do this. We wear our cutest outfit, we use as close to the proper language as we hope, we dont eat a full meal (if we even eat), and at every moment we try to be adorable and cute and worthy of a second date at the same time. This is no easy task and frankly I am fed up with it...even though I havent gotten to that point, Im looking forward to meeting someone as me, fat pants, old-navy t-shirt, country twang guy that refuses to shave everyday. I wonder what he will revel but it will be a meeting under no pretense or preparation a total stripped down evening. After all isnt the point of a relationship whether sexual or platonic the comfort we feel in being ourselves around that person? Do such dates occur, I am sure...look at those that call themselves "couples."

So what am I expecting to come of this?? Honestly nothing just like it has happened many, many, many, many times before (bitter party of 1 please)...but that what is great about living here...the princes are waiting to be kissed to be turned into toads and though it may hurt it has to be for the best. Right?